I'm not sure if I've deluded myself into thinking that I'm ok. Mum's felt worse lately due to Sonya's note and when I say worse, I mean horrific. It's having a huge impact on me and I almost feel as if it's my fault for showing her it despite the fact she asked me to. I feel really numb and horrible at the same time and I'm not quite sure how to process anything.
I'm going to see Charlie tomorrow and for the first time yet with her, I don't want mum to be in there with me. I've finished my Timeline - the main text part at least - but I think I broke our all-in-one printer so I can forget scanning and printing photographs to put onto it. I feel sort of..... idk.
I had my Physics 2 exam today. I expect to get something along the lines of a D - and if not, then most likely a U. I answered most of the questions but it confused the shit out of me and I ended up drawing dwarves over the questions I didn't understand - potted dwarves (dwarves in pots), pot dwarves (smoking, cannabis-loving dwarves) and stuff like that. I'm not sure if it'll even make a difference if they mark me down or not, possibilities aren't looking good.
My laptop's slow and Facebook messages won't load and I feel really numb and raw and a bit like I need to go cut but I won't. I don't think.
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