May 14th, 2012

I cut yesterday for the first time in over a month. It was in the bath with the xacto knife that was purchased to use for the timeline. I felt euphoric and I'm fairly sure I hit a vein, artery or damaged a nerve because the entirety of the bath water turned red because blood was pretty much spewing from this certain part in the gash. I have a Religious Studies exam tomorrow that I'm unprepared for and I want to die die die so instead I'm going to go read and try not to cry myself to sleep... and actually try to get to sleep tonight. Ok.