April 15th, 2012

I'm starting to feel horrid again. It's weird feeling this way and realising I feel much better than I used to, and being unable to handle this. It makes me wonder how I managed to cope before. I promised my sister I'd sleep downstairs with her tonight so I'm going to have to pretend to be happy but I'll stay on the laptop and feel shit again. I don't know why it's hit me so hard this time and why I feel so incredibly horrific - it's not like I've not felt this way before. I think it's because I have school on Tuesday and it's really fucking killing me to know that. I'm so fed up with everyone all the time lol fuck I'm just sort of done and that's it now. I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with school and it will upset my mum but I don't care, I don't want to do anything and I feel as if my plans for August are finite.